Tuesday, October 14, 2008

help?

It's been a long time since I've written on here, and I am sorry about that. Things have just been so hectic lately, starting sophmore year and everything. However, I find myself in a bit of a predicament and I'm not sure what to do about it. 

Here's the story:

This summer, I was on vacation and having a party on the lakefront like we always do. I hung out mostly with this guy and we talked forever then ended up hooking up. Was it good? Ohhh yeah. His stepdad is my dad's best friend, so I see him about once a summer but didn't know him all that well, but loooove his  family. I went over to his house the next night and played cards with him and his entire family, and things were fine. We joked maybe a lil more than normal, because I actually sorta knew him now, but nothing was weird, thank God. He left the day after that to go back home to LA and I thought that was the end of it. A couple days later, he called me and we talked for almost two hours. Then I called him a week later and we talked for almost three hours. That was in August. Since then, we've texted a few times (me initiating) and messaged a few times (him initiating). But nothing major. 

Cute summer story, right? Here's the problem: I can't get him out of my head. And more importantly, I can't figure out why. I've had some summer fun before and have never had an issue with leaving it. I'm not one of those girls that gets attached or pines away for a guy, it's just not me. But for some reason, now it is. Next thing: I'm not a phone talker. My maximum limit is usually about a half hour (even to my family or my best friend that I've known my entire life). But I looooved talking to him, he had such a passion when he was talking about things he cared about. We covered so many topics, and sure there were awkward pauses, but nothing I couldn't handle. 

I realize that there is obviously nothing on his side, considering he hasn't called since August. And I get that I sound like one of those crazy chics. But this isn't me. I want to stop thinking about him. And I want to know why I can't. This is a new experience for me, and I'm not enjoying it. Any advice on how to get over it?